At last….. almost there…

Day four and I woke, kept perfectly still and waited…..I was getting back to normal. The haze wasn’t as thick and fuzzy. There were still remnants but I could tell dementia was fading into the background once more.

I got up, looked out of the window….it was a tad grey and cloudy. So I went downstairs, made my flask of tea while trying to decide whether to go out for an early morning walk before or after my shower 🤔….something so simple becomes a task and a half. I’m just not good at making decisions anymore 🙄…I used to be so decisive, no dithering, but not any more 🙄….Eventually I have my shower, then as I’m getting dressed decide I need a walk after all 🙈

The moon is shining bright between the branches opposite my house..

For some reason I turn right instead of my usual left and head towards the mirage lane. By the farm there’s a beautiful tree with rich red heart shaped leaves

Every time I pass I take a photo…as I reach the lane I see two hares scampering across from one side to the other. I try and zoom in but they’re too quick for me…as I zoom back out I see why they scarpered so quickly….a man and a dog heading up the lane in fron t of me

I decide to turn around. If any nature was out in the fields, the sound of the man and dog would surely frighten them off long before I get there…and as I turn I see the sunrise sky framed by the branches

I’m at the wrong side of the village for the sunrise but I still have the sky…wood pigeons roosting on the higher branches

Through the houses and I head down towards Halfpenny cottage. The village had sad news this week as Mr Jackson, the old man who lived there with his wife, had died. Everyone knew him. All who walked along there would stop and chat to him at his door. He told me soo many stories about his long life in the village but I can only remember one……when he and Mrs Jackson married, it was a horse and cart that carried furniture form the last farm on the lane to their new home….what changes he’s seen….on the village Facebook page, his daughter said, how during lockdown, when EVERYONE was out walking by Halfpenny Cottage, that he described it ‘Like the M62’….the local motorway 🤣….we’ll all miss him, especially his wife of course, now all alone in Halfpenny Cottage 😔

The nicest thing this morning, as I passed there, was the sight of a Robin sat on top of the hedge just by the cottage….🥰

Once home, I decided I couldn’t be in the house alone with dementia today…I didn’t want it to take hold again. I didn’t need anything from town, so I decided to walk in with my camera, then just catch the bus back home. The ducks weren’t interested in my appearance as I walked by….they’d just been fed by Steve so were all having a nap, including the Pochards

It felt like Robins were everywhere today

I watched the rooks flying around the Westwood and managed to snap one mid air as it flew off

On the other side, my favourite line of trees, with a smaller line in the meadow beyond

…and the Minster looming large in front of all the cars as they make their way into town

No sooner am I in town than it’s time for my bus home and my lunch…I’ve had the same things for a year now….porridge with fruit followed by a few little choccies….no decision making there…the advantage of having the same thing every day ☺️

After lunch, I still feel the need to be outside, so potter in the garden, sweeping the leaves, cleaning the bird feeders before I decide to have a final walk before it gets dark…along the back lane where autumn is in full flow

And as I reach Abbys sheep, Dobbie decides to come and say hello, probably in the hope I’ve brought some vegetables….he wasn’t happy when he saw I’d come empty handed 🥴

I could see the sun was starting to lower down in the sky ready for setting…it was like a burst of torchlight through the trees

I carried on straight to the end of the lane by the road…and the sky didn’t disappoint…

I could see it would be a quick sunset, clouds around but clear around the sun

The wind turbine bathed in an orange glow…the ball of sun quickly descending into the clouds below…

Just that small window of clear sky enough to give us a wonderful sunset

The ball of fire was covered in a thin veil of cloud allowing me to zoom in before it departed…

….and within seconds, it was gone

The show now over, I head back home thankful and hopeful that the following day would be a clearer head day…..being outside so much had certainly helped….

About wendy7713

On the 31st July 2014 I was diagnosed with Young Onset Dementia. I may not have much of a short term memory anymore but that date is one I’ll never forget. I’m 58 years young, live happily alone in Yorkshire, have 2 daughters and I’m currently still in full time employment in the NHS. However, I’m now in the process of taking early retirement to give me a chance of enjoying life while I’m still me. I've started this blog to allow me, in the first instance, to write all my thoughts before they’re lost. If anyone chooses to follow my ramblings it will serve as a way of raising awareness on the lack of research into Alzheimer's. It will hopefully convey the helplessness of those diagnosed with dementia, as there is no cure – the end is inevitable. However, I’m also hoping I can convey that, although we've been diagnosed, people like me still have a substantial contribution to make; we still have a sense of humour; we sill have feelings. I’m hoping to show the reality of trying to cope on a day to day basis with the ever-changing environment that dementia throws at those diagnosed with the condition. What I want is not sympathy. What I want is simply to raise awareness.

13 thoughts on “At last….. almost there…

  1. Good morning Wendy. I know you don’t celebrate Thanksgiving in England. We do here in the USA and I want you to know, I’m thankful for you. Not just today but every day. You are a blessing. 🥰xox

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  2. thank you, Wendy for your lovely photos of your expeditions which accompany your words. Your explanations of how you feel and what helps you cope with the mistiness when it descends helps me as a non-suffer gain an understanding of dementia. Long may you and the 4 amigos help the general public have a better understanding of dementia.

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  3. Hi Wendy, so pleased to read that you felt better when you woke this morning I had certainly been praying that you did. I’m so pleased you saw so many lovely Robins today, they are such cheerful wee birds. By now I hope you are fast asleep, I’ve been trying but no luck so far, hopefully I will drop off soon. Looking forward to walking with you in the morning… least in my imagination !…take care God Bless….xx

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