Now how do I catch a train…..? Remind me again……
Last week saw my first trundle on a train for weeks due to the Christmas break. I knew it would be a strange one. I knew it would take concentration…….a difficult process at this time of year.
I was sooooo glad I’d set reminders and done some things before Christmas as the process had become a mystery to me along with many other things during the long quiet break.
A reminder to book a taxi appeared – crikey, I’d even forgotten that…..it even reminded me to see if my daughter was free to pick me up🙄
My tickets had been booked and collected before Christmas so they were also waiting for me, thank goodness. Sticking my hand out to stop the train still makes me chuckle, but it’s what I do for the bus. So it just seemed normal for me……..
It’s been difficult getting ‘back to normal’…..relearning normality. Just getting up early has been difficult. You might say, well yes, we all find it difficult to get up after a break from work….but it’s a different ‘difficult’. I’m not trying to say we’re a special case, I’m just trying to highlight the difference.
Dementia is very clever at giving us a new normality if we’re not careful. A relaxing, gentle doing nothing normal……and before we know it, dementia has taken hold, so I had to snap out of the haven of peace.
So yesterday was my second train journey of the year…..this time to Stirling University in Scotland. Once again, everything had been sorted before the Christmas break. Tickets were waiting for me as I turned the page to this week, along with the printed emails I needed to say who what when and where……
I had to rely on the fact that I had everything sorted…..had to trust myself, which is very difficult at times….
We can be deceptively confident in the responses we give and thoughts we think, but sadly they’re often false, even though to us they’re true. I remember being confident in saying something to my daughters recently, but they pointed out in their gentle way that I’d got it wrong. I have to trust that what they say is right but it can make you feel very confused and sad. But before Christmas, I was in the routine of ‘preparing’ so I had little choice but to trust I’d done everything…..🤞
The most difficult bit was medication…….medication for 4 days….😳 I normally just have them all set out in the weekly travel box, but this was when I took everything in a morning🤯 now I have evening and during the day ones too. I hunted around to see what I could find, and then I came across some different tablet boxes……me thinks I must have had this issue before and bought these……See! I was so organised I didn’t even know I was organised🤣😂
Anyway, the journey started off with beautiful sunshine across the Humber….
I was so looking forward to this journey as the East Coast trundle to Edinburgh is a beautiful one taking in lots of the coast.
It was very weird going through York. I always use to stop or start there😳 but then I could sit back and enjoy the views…..
I’m sure I’ve been on this train journey many times but the views never cease to make me smile
Grant Gibson from the Uni had agreed to meet me at Stirling station, and I’d txt him at the start …..just to check he’d be there so I could relax even more. He appeared as promised and drove me to the hotel that would be my home for the next 2 mights. At reception one of the students was also just arriving and had spent her journey reading my book☺️
After a cuppa tea and a settle into my room. I just had to go for a wander and take in the amazing scenery around the campus…..
and finally, a lovely sunset outside ny room….
Soooo looking forward to meeting the students tomorrow….but now after taking well over 7 hours to get here…..I just want to snooze………💤