Following on from yesterdays blog where I mentioned the PIP.
I’m sure I’ve written about emotions before. When I was talking to someone recently about ‘losing’ the ability to get angry or annoyed, they said people mellow with age. However, those people can usually still get annoyed or still get angry if they really wanted to – the difference with me is, I’ve lost that ability..
I have 3 emotions – happy, sad or content.
I really believe that people with dementia can lose emotions. We’ve heard of the type of dementia that affects and changes peoples personality, well I think this is closely related. If anything was going to test my theory, it was the PIP being turned down. I’ve got no doubt in my mind that pre dementia I would have been angry and been able to channel that anger into appealing . But now I no longer feel anger. When I got the letter I simply cried as it made me sad – I couldn’t feel anger or simple annoyance.
It’s very difficult to fight something when it makes you sad as no one wants to be permanently sad and that’s how I would have felt.
That’s why I can’t fight the PIP – no anger just sadness.