One major change that I’ve noticed over the last few months is the way my mind compensates for its inability to remember detail…..
Details of conversation are few and far between. I can rarely remember the detail of conversations and instead may remember random snippets – often the least important detail!
The change has come in the feelings I’m left with after meeting people. I’ve always been a pretty good judge of character and have often sensed people’s mood, but now these feelings are heightened. I meet people now and minutes after they’ve gone, so has the conversation detail, but what I’m left with is an intense feeling of what I thought of that person and how they made me feel. I’m no stranger to the literature that states that we never lose our emotions, but it’s not until recently that the experience has been so intense and personally applicable to me. I sense an aura of emotion around people which may make you think I’ve lost the plot but it’s just how it is.
I also forget that I’ve met people but the instant I meet them again, I’m filled with the emotion of our last meeting. I appear to be able to sense people’s happiness, sadness, confusion, like never before. Obviously I tend to keep this knowledge to myself as I imagine it would freak people out if I started to ask people why they were sad or angry. However, I can see a time when I may just come out with the question – note to daughters and friends!
The brain is an amazing bit of kit, but mine is certainly trying to compensate in other ways. It’s come in handy to identify those people who don’t have my best interests at heart as I sense I don’t trust or like them and that feeling doesn’t desert me when I meet them again.
Very strange feeling but a very useful one that has come in very handy……..