When your memory lets you down……

One major change that I’ve noticed over the last few months is the way my mind compensates for its inability to remember detail…..

Details of conversation are few and far between. I can rarely remember the detail of conversations and instead may remember random snippets – often the least important detail!
The change has come in the feelings I’m left with after meeting people. I’ve always been a pretty good judge of character and have often sensed people’s mood, but now these feelings are heightened. I meet people now and minutes after they’ve gone, so has the conversation detail, but what I’m left with is an intense feeling of what I thought of that person and how they made me feel. I’m no stranger to the literature that states that we never lose our emotions, but it’s not until recently that the experience has been so intense and personally applicable to me. I sense an aura of emotion around people which may make you think I’ve lost the plot but it’s just how it is.

I also forget that I’ve met people but the instant I meet them again, I’m filled with the emotion of our last meeting. I appear to be able to sense people’s happiness, sadness, confusion, like never before. Obviously I tend to keep this knowledge to myself as I imagine it would freak people out if I started to ask people why they were sad or angry. However, I can see a time when I may just come out with the question – note to daughters and friends!

The brain is an amazing bit of kit, but mine is certainly trying to compensate in other ways. It’s come in handy to identify those people who don’t have my best interests at heart as I sense I don’t trust or like them and that feeling doesn’t desert me when I meet them again.

Very strange feeling but a very useful one that has come in very handy……..

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About wendy7713

On the 31st July 2014 I was diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s. I may not have much of a short term memory anymore but that date is one I’ll never forget. I’m 58 years young, live happily alone in Yorkshire, have 2 daughters and I’m currently still in full time employment in the NHS. However, I’m now in the process of taking early retirement to give me a chance of enjoying life while I’m still me. I've started this blog to allow me, in the first instance, to write all my thoughts before they’re lost. If anyone chooses to follow my ramblings it will serve as a way of raising awareness on the lack of research into Alzheimer's. It will hopefully convey the helplessness of those diagnosed with dementia, as there is no cure – the end is inevitable. However, I’m also hoping I can convey that, although we've been diagnosed, people like me still have a substantial contribution to make; we still have a sense of humour; we sill have feelings. I’m hoping to show the reality of trying to cope on a day to day basis with the ever-changing environment that dementia throws at those diagnosed with the condition. What I want is not sympathy. What I want is simply to raise awareness.

15 thoughts on “When your memory lets you down……

  1. Thanks you Wendy that was so good and useful to hear. I wish I’d known more about how our brains adapt when my parents got diagnosed. I was told to prepare for the worst. But luckily we got so close that we found a way, but it was a rocky road. Thank you for this and all your blogs 🙂

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  2. I have observed this phenomenon in my 87-year-old mother who has dementia of the Alzheimer’s type. I have come to believe as you do that the brain makes “gains” to compensate for “losses.” I believe my Mom has developed what I call “intuitive clairvoyance.”

    Thanks for confirming it. Now I know for sure I’m not crazy 😉

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